ast summer seems like a lifetime ago to me.With so many changes that has happened in my life in the last year...has been tremendous and there is no going back. It's sometimes feel frustrating and heart wrenching, when friends tell me ...well, at least you still have the movie to look forward to. Most of the time, I have to admit it has been hard on focusing on writing
and developing the character for the movie "Eye of noor".
It has been an honor from the start to be part of it...I will continue with what I know and move forward with it. First, I wanted to share my love of writing with you.
Growing up with an older sister, we often entertained ourselves by writing funny sketches , we believed we belonged on Saturday night ..lol
we also wrote funny songs....to make each other laugh...drove my mom crazy of course!!
I did well with creative writing classes as well...teachers always commented you should really get into writing more...of course being the kid in a leather jacket in class just smirked at the teacher hoping she wouldn't say any more.
I also did well in science which later took interest in computer science and became a software testing engineer. As far as writing I wrote poetry and went to readings also known as spoken word. For the writing funny sketches ,almost had a spot with a local
T.V. in San Jose, But I went on with working as an engineer for Oracle. My interest
in films and "acting" almost happened as an accident...really!!! I was a goth kid just hanging out at the cafe where I read my poetry and often did performance art as well...there i was approached by director/ producer Judy Boots , she from Los Angeles,CA...she invited me to her casting call....I was surprised of course...i was just playing chess and having coffee with some friends...she had a room full of people to choose from..really...I never expect good things to happen... for me..not really. I smiled at her after she had invited me to a casting call for a vampire movie...only because i thought ..oh ok...she picked me because I was dressed gothic...but again there was a room full of people who were also gothic looking....
She said I had a look she was looking for..she handed me her card and asked me to be there...as she walked away with her card in my hand i was like shocked and excited....I did show up to her casting call ...after i got off my engineering job,
which was no problem ...I was going to meet up with my gothic dj friends later that evening in a long gothic dress....she loved the dress,,it looked victorian era....
she handed me the script and I went to a far cornor of the room and read it and got ready to read it to her....when it was my turn she just loved me...Judy and I became good friends during the filming of her film I picked her brain about directing and producing it seemed far more interesting then acting to me...lol.
She ran out of funds for the Independent film and decided to pack it up and go back to LA....I took a job with Oracle as a engineer.
But, it always haunted me..I had a million what ifs....only if I had another chance....I would totally do it..be a vampire once again.I share my love for classic films with my children ...but i do not try to influence them to be anything like me.
I also share my love of writing with them throughout the years and I feel that's a good thing.
My 2nd chance....
last year ...is when it all began...I found some local film students and local musicians who had invited me to part for their projects for school...after they told me that their teacher graduated the same year from film school with George Lucas,
and the teacher had also shared that he was George Lucas best friend and still in touch today..well...i was impressed they had him for a teacher...and wanted to support local art.
I began with the school projects and underground music videos...this year is the last year the film students will be around....they will be moving to Los Angeles with jobs they already have lined up....I love learning their concepts when I ask them ...
"what is it about??" and what inspired you??? they just love to share their idea's and their dreams with me....I find it refreshing to be part of them. I will certainly
miss them when they are gone...this summer...I am happy for them and I am very proud of them.
I knew "J" when he was 13 yrs old...i ran into him now as a film student with his Girlfriend who is also a film student...who I also worked with..mainly her projects...she is a brilliant visual art student from Japan..she is just awesome..
she has an edge...just wow!!
Then I got asked to have a phone interview with LARTU Communications & Media and Myelin Productions....i had 3 interviews...and share the same concepts of the vampire
history and we were on the same page...I was offered a supporting role and as a writer to develop my character...wow at last my 2nd chance has arrived and bonus I get to write yay!!
I have wrote and revised many times already since I started last summer....which is part of the process with writing and developing characters.
It has become a stronger character....more solid then from when i started...I must admit I'm glad I revised and had lots of nightmares...how else will this vampire character going to come to life. It's amazing where my mind goes when i get inspired....from the real life turns into fantasy. That's the great thing about writing I can always
escape reality....since my is where I dread to be...i have other things that pulls me
out for just a little while.... which i truly appreciate...but, I do take care of my responsibilities when I'm back in the real world.
I had other amateur writing experience...for another company...
but mainly children short stories unpublished.
just because I am an amateur writer..it doesn't mean that I'm not serious...because
I am very serious about writing.
I am very grateful that I am given an opportunity to write for an Independent film...
I am very humble about this film and always will be humble and down to earth ....
my grandma used to say ..it's better to be humble and down to earth or else someone will put you in your place...I don't want that ..so there u go..lol
by no means ..I am not a stuck up, egotistical, prissy "actress" from California...
not at all, that's why I choose to work with Independent Film productions...the
creative flow is still there with the intensity and drive that is in it's raw form.
A true desire to express.
As the same for supporting role...I also take it very seriously...
I go as far as physically training for my part and will start some other training as
sword fighting and other activities to get me ready for my role.
You would be surprised how physical acting can really be...some scenes can take hours to film..it can look as simple as fighting ..but believe me when you filmed for 5 to 8 hours just to get that scene just right it can be physically draining...it really can....so many people think...well..oh it's just a sword fight scene..lol
swords can start to feel very heavy after holding it and lifting it into action for a fighting scene for hours...I will be prepared and will go to every extent to make sure I deliver the performance as directed.
I take my work seriously.
What it means to me to have a role as a vampire....
I can share a hundred of my silly thoughts on this...but I can just tell you that
since I was 5 years old I always sneeked to the T.V late Friday nights to tune in to creature features.. all the classic movies..like Bela Lugosi...and many more...
Bela is long gone now but his legacy continues forever as that awesome vampire...
Role of a vampire is naturally timeless...instant immortality without asking the audience to make the vampire immortal....ageless..time can't touch.
I wouldn't mind leaving that behind when I'm long and gone someday.....
for everyone to remember me as something That I had a chance to be part of....for all time to keep.
When ,I'm done filming with the vampire film I will be satisfied just to know, that I can look back at my life and say ..I did something
Believing in vampires as a kid...lol...
I got in trouble for watching Vampires late at night as a 5 year old kid....
I used to leave my window open every night.
One night my Grandma finally asked me why do you always leave the window open everynight???....It's getting very cold!!
I remember telling her.."NO!..don't close the window!!"
She would ask me why??
I remember telling her that I was waiting for them to come for me!
She asked ..who??
I remember telling her.."The vampires!!"...I want to be just like them....they have to come for me...I would be a great vampire grandma!!
I really believe they were waiting for me somewhere!!
and in my heart I know i was going to be a vampire..even while she scold me for wanting to be a vampire,,she said they were evil...she was a catholic old lady...my ears went deaf to her as she told me me stuff about god ....and vampires don't go...and I held on the fact I had real desires to be a vampire...that no one can take from me.
Same dreams as a kid...lol
I've always been fascinated with..tv movie hosts
like Creature Features Host Bob Wilkins,,,
Horror Show Hosts on Television - Cassandra Peterson as Elvira, Mistress of the Dark - MOVIE MACABRE.
Zomboo's House of Horror Movies : The World's Best Horror Host Around!...lol...He took a picture with my son when Skyler was only a month old.... I missed the opportunity last December of 2010...casting for a Creepy Kofy Tv host...
ahhh....I would of loved that job!!!!
Silly to most...but not to me,,they air Elvia afterwards..wow...what an honor...!!!!
Maybe next time....the film student is gonna help me get a 5 to 10 mins clip of me hosting so next time I will submit it....
I love classic horror films..timeless....
The schmucks on the local TV around here has no respect for the classics ....how will the classics
be preserved for the next generation to appreciate it????
Hey, I would love to hear everyone's thought on this blog ....I want to encourage
everyone to comment and ask questions or whatever...Thanks-CyberVamp
I spend lots of my time in solitude , reflecting and writing...always alone with my thoughts...I also spend time on research for writing on ancient vampire myths legends from different cultures from all over the world....lots of materials to read.
other time I have ...I spend with my kids and Hockey..that's about it...lol
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